why is it that, these rush of emotions hafta come at this point in time where exams are about to take place, isp's due... a time where i really need to focus on school? so to give in to my distracted mindset i have resulted to be here rather than sticking my nose in the books where it should belong now.

i really dont know what i'm thinkin at this point, i wanna stay i earnestly do, but i wanna be there too. grrrr

richie's right. why is my church wanting to spend $18 million on a new luxury church? whereas a simple practicle orphanage would only cost less than $1 million. are we not satisfied with ourselves? is this church really sure they wanna put that much money into expanding this church, where it could soon become something that isn't of God, like pride in looks and luxury? i'm not even sure if i'm supporting this, cuz $18 million is a lot of money, where it could be spent on somewhere that needs that money unlike us fortunate people...

maybe i shouldnt think too much, cuz if these things are supposed to happen, itll happen. i enjoy being in your company so much though, and i'm looking forward to the next time i'll see you again. cuz without you all i'm going to be is incomplete

k gotta go back to nerding myself late at night...