I don't always want to smile like it doesn't bother me nor do I want to shrug it off as if it never happened because well it does bother me and well it did happen.
It's been far too long and I swear if I wasn't myself I'd call myself crazy and slap myself until I snapped out of it.
Being a girl comes some girl instincts and emotions where most of the time they can't be stopped. As a result, usually suppression takes place.
Do I mind? Sometimes. Do I still do it? Yeah.
Closure: it's about time.