the inability to function

I can't talk properly, I can't walk properly, I can't do anything properly.

I'm so tired. I've learned my lesson, I know when to say yes and when to say no.

2 MORE WEEKS BABY.

missing

I don't like losing things. Objects or people - it still feels the same. I feel lost and unable to function normally.

Right now I'm more concerned about my clip, my makeup, my toothbrush and my bag. I want it back by the end of this week. :S

blatantly disregarded

I'm sad at how much you can change within a week's time based on what's convenient for you, what you want for yourself for your temporary satisfaction. I'm sad for how much I'm willing to give up and the distance I'm willing to go just for you.

I'm sad that I had hope.

And if you decide to crawl back like you always do, there needs to be some crazy legitimate explanation. I know when you lie and I know when you tell the truth.

trust

I can't believe I decided to trust you when I didn't even know you. Now I know not to. Let's hope you start learning to mind your own business.

And wow, it's been a while since I've felt the way I do now. I don't know what I was thinking when I wished to feel this way - my heart kinda hurts. I don't exactly know what started it but yeah, it basically hurts right now.

Maybe it was the mellow Spidey movie, which by the way, was really good so I don't know what people are saying when they say it sucks. It doesn't exactly follow everything of the storyline, but I think it's the best one yet.

I wonder how many chances I'm gonna give you. I wonder how many times I have to suck it up and not speak up...

Oh boy, Rachel needs a vacation.

I think I was definitely undergoing a case of PMS during my after-school hours. The fourth graders were getting on my nerves that I gave them so much cuteye. Oops.

I went to refund the Rain tickets today. My heart was breaking as I handed it to the lady, but my jaws dropped at how much cash was returned.

The parentals aren't home tonight... too bad I have a lot of work to do. :(

And as for Saturday events, I wish I could be in a few places at once. That would fit just right. I want to get tutored in Calc and Chem; I want to go shopping; I want to play volleyball; I want to go chill. SIGH

rehabilitation

Again, I resorted back to this thing for a change.
I keep not wanting to write because of the fear of judgement, fear of exposure.

BUT... now I'm back hoping to store some kinda memories in my last days of high school. It's crazy I know. To some, I seem so young and yet I seem so old. I want to rethink why I need to pursue post-secondary education. Where do I want my future to be directed towards?

Anyway, I realized that I'm not always a patient person and yet I seem to have very high tolerance for some things/people that drive me insane. Why is it that I can sit back and do nothing?

On another note
9 days 'til Spring Formal. 21 days 'til Haig Prom. I'm still thinking about the possibilities of going to AY's afterparty... It won't be long 'til I finally graduate and then I'm off to the hot hot streets of Hong Kong.

While you're here reading this, check out the first link on the side of my page. It's some good stuff, so go go go. :)