I'm prayin' that you are a person that is an example of unconditional love. Despite my past that I am not too proud of and despite the things you had to witness with your own eyes, you still chose to love me.
You're asking if you can trust me and I know so far there hasn't been a case where your trust in me is jeopardized but yet sometimes I feel as if you will use my past against me. I'm scared shitless that every time I think about it I feel like crying - the way I felt before there was any us.
I'm trusting that you are a man of unconditional love because you're all I ever want.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
All I want for Christmas, is you.
It's hard to buy a present for a non-materialistic person... ie. Mike.
I ask him, what you want for Christmas
He says, Nothing
Playfully, I ask him again, nothing??
He says, nothing.
I ask him, Nothing, even no one?
He replies smiling, no one.
I ask him, you don't want meeeeeee for Christmas?
He says, I already have you :)
I ask him, what you want for Christmas
He says, Nothing
Playfully, I ask him again, nothing??
He says, nothing.
I ask him, Nothing, even no one?
He replies smiling, no one.
I ask him, you don't want meeeeeee for Christmas?
He says, I already have you :)
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
The Long Haul
I live by the "whatever's supposed to happen, will happen" attitude - it sounds the most reasonable. But do our current choices not determine what will happen?
The whole God's plan thing is all so confusing to me. Like basically our lives are already planned out, so is there a point in choosing something, hoping for something ('cause that's part of our plan too right?)
Like if we could choose who we would be with for the rest of our life, is that part of His plan or do we have enough power to control it?
It's a confusing topic but yet sometimes I feel like I can change my future and sometimes I feel like it's already set out for me so if I want more than is planned... it won't make a difference.
Mike and I have been dating for about nine months now and honestly, I don't wanna be consumed in this relationship (because I really want to) if nothing is going to come of it after. He's old enough to get married and honestly, I don't think he's wasting his time on an "almost adult" like me if he wasn't serious right?
I'm pretty sure that after dating a few years - it's enough to say that if we can tolerate each other for like 4 years, we can live with each other for 40. But at the same time, it's a choice; we choose who our significant other will be...
Or do we?
The whole God's plan thing is all so confusing to me. Like basically our lives are already planned out, so is there a point in choosing something, hoping for something ('cause that's part of our plan too right?)
Like if we could choose who we would be with for the rest of our life, is that part of His plan or do we have enough power to control it?
It's a confusing topic but yet sometimes I feel like I can change my future and sometimes I feel like it's already set out for me so if I want more than is planned... it won't make a difference.
Mike and I have been dating for about nine months now and honestly, I don't wanna be consumed in this relationship (because I really want to) if nothing is going to come of it after. He's old enough to get married and honestly, I don't think he's wasting his time on an "almost adult" like me if he wasn't serious right?
I'm pretty sure that after dating a few years - it's enough to say that if we can tolerate each other for like 4 years, we can live with each other for 40. But at the same time, it's a choice; we choose who our significant other will be...
Or do we?
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
There's a first for everything
We're giving each other our first silent treatment and I am not liking it at all.................
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