lessons

1. So I guess I'll never know how much something/someone means to me until they're/it's taken away. And I'll never get to cherish it the way it deserves to be. Love what you're given, love the people around you. For real.
2. It's okay to cry. In fact, I consider it a strength being able to be vulnerable to emotions. To an extent of course. But you know the generalization of how guys aren't supposed to cry? Well I think otherwise. You may be strong to be able to withstand the rush of tears, but I say you're stronger when you cry and have the ability to express those emotions.
3. Laughing and crying at the same time could probably be one of the ugliest things you can show to people. haha
4. "Goodbyes were never easy for me. So I guess I'll see you later."
   

rachel like, never does these things

Your Candy Heart Says "First Kiss"

You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship.You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you Your flirting style: friendly and sweet What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive

church again does its miracle

Okay yeah, maybe not a miracle. But again, something someone said during my time there tonight hit me. After all the valentines craze, all the relationships that are circulating around me, it's often easy to feel a certain way, to feel underappreciated. And yet, I still search because I know sitting around isn't going to do me any good. So here it is:

"Find someone you can't live without, not someone we can live with."
Easier said than done.

We look for people who can accomodate our needs, our desires. Okay, that's a good start.
But we often forget to look for the significant other that we'd honestly stop functioning without.

Just a thought.

It's interesting to see what letting loose and laughing it off can do for you.
It's also interesting to see how thinking positive and hoping for the best in everything can benefit you.
You'll begin to see changes in priorities and personality.

It's a good thing.
Oh worrywarts, you'll probably develop less wrinkles on the forehead and more on the eyes and near the mouth.
Kidding.
Actually, not really. But still.

love has no limits

A friend reminded me after a mini conversation about his deeply admired. Just lately, in case you haven't noticed, Hollywood or not, breakups and heartbreaks were all around. People make excuses and reasons to end a relationship where "endless love" was what they had. And yet it's like, if it was really love, there's nothing anyone can do to stop it. There's no limiting your love. No matter where we are, what we do, I still love you.

So I commend him for reminding me because he has one of the purest admirations for a girl that I have ever known.

love has no limits.
Just like God.

differences

I realize that I don't have much to say that inspires. I don't have much to share because much of it I keep to myself. To myself, because no one else can truly relate.

Differences are so much more apparent now that career paths are on hand. Same interests, same activities, same circadian clock. We seldom do the "I'll-do-what-you're-gonna-do" but moreso, "This-is-what-I'm-gonna-do-and-it's-up-to-you-if-you-wanna-follow".

I've grown to be less dependent on others; I'm learning to walk on my own, fully knowing that not everyone by me now is gonna be with me later. I'm sorry if I ever appear detached from any one of you and I'm sorry if I ever appear irritable that people are so dependent on me; it's a great feeling that we need each other, but that's just the way things are right now.

I'm trying to be..
strong on my own

Watch me fail, watch me prevail.

edit -- to the anonymous, I didn't mean I don't need anyone. What I meant was what you said self-sufficient; don't want to always live off people, always expect people to provide for me.

Say I'm contradictory, wrong or hypocritical for saying this:
But I really don't like it when people complain about how miserable their life is.
It's like "Life sucks."
Well, look at what you're doing.
Ever wonder why it did suck?
'Cause you think it sucks.

we complain too much

We always complain about how hard school is, how much homework we have, how crappy people treat each other without reason, and yet we really don't know how fortunate we are, how unnecessary complaining is.

If you woke up this morning with more health than illness,
you are more blessed than the million who won't survive the week.

If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture or the pangs of starvation,
you are ahead of 20 million people around the world.

If you attend a church meeting without fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or death,
you are more blessed than almost three billion people in the world.

If you have food in your refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof over your head and a place to sleep, you are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish someplace,
you are among the top 8% of the world's wealth.

If your parents are still married and alive,
you are very rare.
If you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are truly thankful, you are blessed because the majority can, but most do not.

If you can hold someone's hand, hug them or even touch them on the shoulder,
you are blessed because you can offer God's healing touch.

If you can read this message,
you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world that cannot read anything at all.

You are so blessed in ways you may never even know.

So next time if a word of complaint may leave your mouth like word vomit, or if whining seems to come your way, think twice about what you're actually complaining about. Being truly content with what you're given is one of the purest joys you can have.

from wednesday's chapel

"I have been unfaithful
I have been unworthy
I have been unrighteous
And I have been unmerciful
I have been unreachable
I have been unteachable
I have been unwilling
And I've been undesirable
And sometimes I have been unwise
I've been undone by what I'm unsure of
But because of you
And all that you went through
I know that I have never been unloved
I have been unbroken
I have been unmended
I have been uneasy
And I've been unapprochable
I've been unemotional
I've been unexceptional
I've been undecided
And I have been unqualified
Unaware - I have been unfair
I've been unfit for blessings from above
But even I can see
The sacrifice You made for me
To show that I have never been unloved."

I was so deeply moved when I first heard this song. So apparently, it's a pretty old song, but the words will forever be timeless. After some many days of naively sulking in my own loneliness, there's this far greater Love that will never cease to satisfy.

So thank you Lord, for creating in me something that will never be replaced.

*Can anyone say..
ditto? =)