i miss the way we used to laugh til it hurt, til we couldnt breathe, til we'd make everyone stare at us weirdly, but at the same time not having a care in the world what we looked like...

in bahamas, and it is BEAUTIFUL. everyone's really nice and courteous here too which makes me tres happy! still miss you all back home, and remember to email me your addresses for postcards! ahahah i'm still shopping for the cheapest prices there is, you know me and my chinese self. so yep. i've only seen a couple hotties out there, which seems kinda sad considering its BAHAMAS. oh well siblings still temper tantrumming everyday. siiiighs, KILL ME!

floridaness

yeeees i'm in floreeeedaaaa and bored. sister's been throwing many temper tantrums here and there and its driving me caaraaazy! but its okay, i look forward to the sunny suns, palmy palm trees and beeachy beaches. hahaha i miss you all like mad! wish you guys were here

oooh book/uniform sale today. i never thought i'd be blogging about this but this is definitely something to remember. spent all morning running around getting my books, and wow i swear my mom has such a big influence on me. i was bargaining SO MUCH. after i bargained for all my buyable books there, i ran around helping ppl bargain. ahhaha its fun! but way too chinese if you ask me. oh well and yet again it was nice seeing school people again. as much as i dont like school, i love the ppl!

so i end up going back home boring my brains out. we shulda been packing. i couldve ended up somewhere with dana or at aivos or watching batman with ayers. oh well... so much for packing, which reminds me, i still havent even started...

and if you birthday people for today. DANA, VANESSA, BYRON ever come across this sometime in the future. HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENS TO DANA AND VANESSA. AND HAPPY SEVENTEENTH TO BYRON.

well so longggg, i'll be home on june 30 :) for those who dint write me plane letters, which is the majority of you (since i dint ask, silly me) you can email me them! i'll be checkin. miss you all tons!

hmmm so i woke up today to the sound of my phone ringing, which turned out to be my mom nagging again. and then i linger around at home til it was time for me to head out once again towards the desperate destination thing called ay. so everyone's chillin outside, dennis gave me a bike ride that dint last too long cuz it hurt my crotch since i wasnt sitting on the seat. n then after sometime we finally walk to the bus stop. with talking about probs and ish, wow ahahha, too dramatic i should say. n then we bus to fv, we really had no clue where we were going. everyone was so mellow after that talk and ish, especially dilly. he wasnt himself. as i would say dryly, "he's usually the person you'd tell to shut up" we walk around the mall and eat, then we took booth pics and as always they end up being a workout. we look so gay. ahhaha so saki was like "okay we'll give the guys the ones we look good in and we'll take the ones we look bad in" EXACTLY what i was thinking. and surprisingly, jen bri dani helen and britt were there too eating! mmm n then we spend our time at the disney store. eheheheh! we all got so excited over the talking puppets. ahhahahah fun fun, and then we go our separate ways. ahahha subway ride was interesting to school. dennis found his way in through four quarters, whereas dilly just walked by. whoa smooth. i kept dissing dilly (SORRY!) n then dilly and dennis stole the HUNK MONTH poster. ahhaha n then we just totally had this thing over the words HUNK MONTH cuz it sounded german. mmm it was funny then.

well grad overall was boring. the ceremony part anyways cuz i only stayed for that. but it was nice seeing ppl again! all the grads *teears* i'm gonna miss them. and wow teachers came back. mr fuller, mr hiebert and miss fox. the three teachers that contributed to the coolness of the faculty, or should i say lack of. but theyre definitely ppl i miss. roz and former grads came back too which i was tres happy to see. too bad i dint get to stay for the reception. oh well, whenever God decides to cross our paths again, i'll be ready :) man i think we were really disruptive in the balcony. tsk tsk, we really prove the teen stereotype of rowdiness to be true. i flung my livestrong out of the balcony into the bottom floor. I WAS COMPLETELY RED. like omw i felt so stupid. mmm and other stuff happened but i wont go into detail, since i dont remember the details!

oh and i love the disney store! i cant wait til i step foot into disney world again hehehehhe ^^V
remind me to never make that lil face again.

past feeew days

and so saturday was like pretty weird, i show up at hsc only to find out i couldnt have my interview cuz i dint have my reference letters ready. and thennn i went to pmall, my sister went to get a facial. which dint really work out. and thennn i lingered around til it was time to go to j-squared at buffet city. i would say it was interesting, not very like WOW but okay. i liked the chocolate dipped strawberries the most, haha everything else was craaap. n then we have this lil moment after in the corner. andd thennn since we were a large group we like totally raided the bus to go to chuey's house. hahaha ppl kept toppling over the strangers on the bus. and thenn i kept giving kai silent treatment cuz he deserved it. and thennn when we get to chuey's house. all his floors (he has five floors) were like mobbed out. hahaha well for me, i dint really fit in by the xbox, nor the piano, nor the tv, so i sat in the chill room where ppl basically mo liu for. hahaha n then there was another lil moment where one needed hugs. our game of pig with dares dint last very long after mish and henry did their "lapdance" LOL it kinda died down. then we played catch hahaha, kai is just obsessed with my buttocks.

ooooooohhh got my g1 on monday. i was like praying praying praying that i would pass. ND i did. there's your proof for all you peepz that doubt that God doesnt answer prayers. i wasnt like really ready for it. it was pretty much impromptu. walk in (i really dint know what i was doing) n then i basically gave the woman my id my info n then suddenly she tells me to stand somewhere, n then i wasnt even ready to take my pic. but she took it anyway. oh well its only g1. so writing the test i was pressed for 30 minutes. but the sound of writing a 40 question test in 30 minutes sounds nerveracking though i only used 20 minutes of it. so i dint get PERFECT.. hahaha 16/20 (just passed!) and 18/20. yeah hahahah

todayyyyy i went to ddc training, yeah it was repetitive. same thing every year. but imagine what the directors hafta do. they've been thru it more than me so i should really stop complaining. n then i walk to ay. betty and all my other lovers were there :) went thru english and guitar class all over again. and as usual, pretty borling. hmm i thought last week was more fun. maybe cuz ppl werent studying for exams last week like they did today. annnd christian fellowship. it was outreach, so it was fun. except ppl kept coming in and stealing food then leaving. oh well its rude but meh, we're still doing all we can to spread God's love. then jayho drove me home. and i'm sad dennis is moving to west philly!

we just got tornadoed? say whaaaaaat?!

to realize...

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.

Time waits for no one.
Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:

Lose one.

to phoebe mak aka pheebs, bee

this being the third post today, looking blog obsessed, but it doesnt really matter. i'm writing this in response to your shout, not under obligation but because i want to. it's been a rocky ride. ups and downs, but hey thru every lil bit i learn to cherish you a bit more. i wasnt always there for you especially when you really needed me. i wasnt always being what a true friend shouldve been, one who would be there thru thick and thin, no matter what you've done or who you've become, one who would go through some little tiny obstacles to show that i really care.

we've watched each other grow, physically (in my case, its not very obvious sadly *teears*), mentally and spiritually. from puppy love secrets we used to share, our teenybopper ways, til now we can talk about deeper things, things that matter, things that will matter.

i've learned how to look past your differences. because thats part of who you are, we've been friends for so long since the day you were a fob at pca til now, i dont even notice any fob in you. LOL somehow it passed on to me. and i've learned to accept who you are, love who you are. so thank you for being part of my life, thank you for being born, thank you for everything of you that contributes to my happiness. we said we'd be boyfriends forever.

well waddya know...

i love surprises. my mom and i were just loading me and my sister's old beds into our car so that it could be brought to my aunt's friend's house who needed beds. and so i go not really expecting anything. and i see this guy, who looks amazingly familiar walk out of his house into a taxi. and then i walk to the door, a girl opens the door with a guy who looks REALLY familiar right behind her. AHHH ITS GENCAN. lol ahahah yeah they were renting space out in their basement and needed beds. siiighs. ahhaha surprised i am. my mommy thinks he's lang jai. and so i ask my aunt. i'm like. so whats this connection again? n then she's like oh we're colleagues. n then i'm like ooohh interesting. but whoa. that like completely creeped me out... in a good way, i havent seen him in so long! yeah the guy and girl are his siblings... it was so awkward cuz i wasnt ready for it. and i looked funky >=[ grr! hahaha

ahhhh okay this is what i need to do before i go vacaying

• g1 test!
• doncrest dc ish
• hospital volunteering ish
• visit ay
• visit dmci
• email my romanian cuties, which reminds me, i got one today from PHILLY! aahhh i'm soo happy, it like made my day!
• practice piano!
• clean room
• grad stuff
• PACK

frenglish for you

je ne pense pas que beaucoup de things est working out. grrr, de dl a hsc. whats next? siiiighs, je sais que i shouldnt give up, mais c'est tres exhausting, tu sais? *shrugs* et penser que l'été est ici et ma vie est a lot more free, mais it seems que c'est equally stressful. okay, j'ai besoin de aller back to depending dans mon Dieu.

how true it is...

OUR LIVES - THE CALLING
Is there love, tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've got to believe that
There's a reason we're here
Yeah, there's a reason we're here...
Oh, yeah...
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives...
See the truth, all around
Our faith can be broken
Our hands can be bound
But open our hearts
And fill up the emptiness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Yeah, is it not worth the risk?...
No, yeah...
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives...
And even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives...
We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong to speak our minds
I've got to let out what's inside...
Is there love, tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Can we get it right?
Yeah, can we get it right?...
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives...
And even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives...
Oh, yeah, let's make the best out of our lives...
Oh, yeah, let's make the best out of our lives...

F-R-E-E

THATS RIGHT CHILDREN. thats what i am. lol well i hafta get back to studying for a stupid g1 test since i cant really do the test with my common sense, or lack of i should say. love y'all dearly

• i had my first communion today! hahaha
• and milly spilt her juice.
• jim's sermon was really good and it spoke to me. i look forward to next week's.
• SO HOT today, like dying HOT. but hey, i love the smell of summer, the feeling of summer!
• and i must say, i am aw-aw-awe some in soccer.
• and i kept getting annoyed at caleb & co's lil language of nerd/geekiness. EW.
• i love pocahontas and her raccoon MEEKO! ahaha i watched it today when i went to sam's club. i'm such a cheapazz.
• richard has a stupid hammock where he gets to relax under the shade
• kevin's really ham sup, holy crap.
• okay so back to nerding myself =(

PROMISE U!

hahaha so it took a while for me and jo to figure out the two meanings behind it. LOL and i also thought the presentation would be really cheesy. which it was, but funny. hahaha all the repetitives "READY. OKAY!" and the super cute guy named harold. n thne the reallly really into it mixed lil boy. ooooh so many squeals. jo kept going HEHE. and my lil bro is soooo cuuute! hahaha n the very old line dancers. and the choir songs that TOTALLY dint make sense. ooooh i had fun laughing at ppl. n then at the restaurant. my sister is SO retarded. LOL but then i find out that jo's retarded too. man i kept laughing for no good reason. but thats really great, cuz that proves i'm HAPPY. riiight. okay so lots more stuff to say but i'm lazy so. i'm gonna leave it at that. i'm supposed to be studying.. mmm.

high school sophomore-d memories

lets see if i can remember everything

• first day of school, many girls (yes including me) were chasing down michael kim *sighs* LOL
• syatp 2004
• wonderland 918 with jo leslie and ml
• earl bales day
• westley's 20th birthday
• music retreat 2004
• halloween
• cousins visiting
• mish's house
• mtee's house on new years
• vball season (we stink like crap!)
• folcc valentines banquet
• the multiple times i've visited ay
• tc trainings
• non-tdsb TC2005
• agape retreat
• my dunking!
• my sweet sixteen
• EUROTRIP!
• PCA spring banquet - havana nights
• DMCI prom - para siempre
• impromptu worship sessions

thats about it so far, if i missed anythin, message moiiiiiiiiii

2 down 3 to go

cant believe i made it thru today. all the stress i had yesterday is now leveled down a bit knowing i'm almost halfway there. excessive amount of writing for english and history. so now i have bump on my finger... and jones kept ignoring me today lol. well so were a lot of people. MEANIES. lol meh, maybe i was being annoying today LOL not likely! and then after stan and derek drove my bro and i home. yay :) and so i shall go study for math now.... i'll be needing it

*GASP*

so here i am being a stupid lil girl, not studying but rather wasting her time on this piece of...thing. so yep the last few days have been, interesting. still not getting the point of how we're half way thru high school, how more people are leaving me... but meh, it should be okay. i do make an effort to keep in touch, most of the time.
highlights of the past few days.
stupid drew kept mugging me
jen's lil part in her play =P
worship sessions
hugs from many people
the grade 12 presentations today
hangman with dana and nigel
piano and guitar with sam and kawai

a more appealing blog is to come... when i'm not pressed for exams. siighs.. just a few more day and i am fareeeee